Thursday, August 31, 2006
6:37 PM
6C 2002 BATCH REUNITED ONCE AGAIN!!!
Never felt so happy today!! Returning to KCPPS is always something that I look forward too. After celebration, straightaway headed back there. As I signed in, I saw Jill and Kok Liang's name on the list. Whew! At least I wasn't the only one, there were people earlier. So I went to the canteen to look for them and saw Audrey breezing past me. Haha! And to think she "dao" me yesterday. Lol...anyway she already explained her reason. Something urgent to attend to right? The 4 of us (Jill, Kok Liang, Audrey and I) sat at the canteen table and talked. Then came a bunch of guys, also from 6C. Justin, Mikhail, Joel, Joanna, Anna, Ze An, Cheok Mun and Shi Hui. It seems like everyone's changed after 4 years. Justin and Mikhail more "manly" =P, Joel and Shi Hui taller than ever and even Anna too. Pretty little charming lady that mesmerized me. Haha!! Audrey also increased in height and Jill and Kok Liang are like holding important positions either in counsellor or CCA. Me?? I think I'm still stagnant. didn't even change one bit...and I'm not even weilding any power in CCA. Just a puny, pint-sized member. Haiz...and oh! Did I mention Joanna was a counsellor before? See? Everyone is like...how does the Chinese saying go? "Cheng Long Cheng Feng" while mine is "Yi Shi Wu Cheng"...even Francis is topping his class in studies...HAIZ!! I suck!!
Yeoh emerged out of the staffroom at 1 plus, after such a long time of waiting. Then we talked about so many things. And Mrs Yeoh even said A-Maths and E-Maths are easier than primary school. I was flabbergastered. I mean? Are you kidding? I always fail...to get an A for both of them. But ha ha! She also dislikes Physics, and loves Chemistry. Yeah!!! She says Biology is also not her type, however it's one of my faves!! And Mrs Yeoh was previously from AJC. Cool huh? So capable...I don't even know whether my Prelims will fail me or not. Hui Min says I can still be eligible for the 3-month-trial even though I score above 20, but I doubt so. Hopefully can. There was one thing that Mrs Yeoh said that I still couldn't get it out of my head. In fact, it's sending chills down my spine. She commented TYS are very important, especially for both Maths. We have to "sleep" with it also, meaning practise and practise to understand the concept. I know, but the thought of having to "sleep" with it really makes me want to puke. Uggh! TYS. Bleh...
The school now is very well developed...and you know what? The library rocks!! It's such a big room, very open space and it's even equipped with computers just placed near the entrance. Like it's meant for everyone to use without even having to register your name. My current school? I don't even think I've touched the keyboards in the library. The staircase is marvellous! It even has times table numbers painted on it. Hmm...wonder if my school can paint differentiation and integration and logarithm formulas on the spiral stairs. Then each morning as I walk up, I can memorize them in my head! =)
I just missed those days when we were kept back in class during recess to do corrections. It may seem very bad of Mrs Yeoh to do that, but looking back, I realized it was for our own good. After all, she said when she does that now, parents complain straight to the General Office behind her back. Well...that's bad.
Met Mr Ong today as well after Mrs Yeoh. He hasn't changed one bit even after 4 years. Erm...except his hairstyle, it's like more curly now, like "Maggi Mee". Lol...thought he wouldn't recognize me after such a long time but hey! His memory is still solid. He bought a new flute...think it's Armstrong brand...the one with the gold mouth piece for $2800. And he bought it after I leave...haiz, why can't he buy it when I'm still there?? Purposely want to spite me...lol...He's still teaching KCP band...and the members there looked so cute...I'm starting to miss life in KCP band also!! He says teaching sec school band is better than teaching a pri school one but I beg to differ. I mean, sec school is also equally bad...like need expression and style..whereas pri is teaching basics. They were playing "March Together" today which we already learnt in AMK band. Turns out Mr Ong also knows my AMK conductor Mr Tan. But apparently, Mr Tan doesn't know him. Anyway...it feels good to know people do remember me even after I graduate for so long. Hey! My picture's still in the school hall!! HA HA!!
PS: I "brag" to all my friends that my DSA was approved! Felt so good, haha...just kidding!! Actually, it's only half the battle won. Still have to depend on O Level results. Should have applied to Hwa Chong also...lol...
no words can express
my love for you
Thursday, August 24, 2006
6:30 PM
CANDICE CHOONG!!! PLEASE WAKE UP!! How can you make careless mistakes? Especially when the Maths paper today is easier compared to all the other papers that you did the past few days?? Formula of cone is 1/3 x base area x height. It's not that they never give you the formula. Mrs Seah was kind enough to even stick it at the top of the question. And then you can even make mistake, suddenly adding a 2 out of the blue and now, everything is wrong. WRONG!! ERROR CARRIED FORWARD!! 6 MARKS GONE! And not to mention the numerous blanks you left behind while trying to complete the paper in a time span of 2 hours. People are telling you they even have half hour left to sleep and check, with NO blanks at all! And there you are still struggling to finish the paper!!! YOU BETTER BUCK UP!! PEOPLE ARE SAYING THIS PAPER IS EASY. EASY!!! If you want to secure your A2 you have to do well in tomorrow's paper!! Or else you can really forget about entering first 3-months into your dream JC. Considering last year's batch only 10% of them made it through Prelim results. And worse still, it's one of the lousy JCs and not the good ones. Haiz...to hit a 20, you MUST get your 4 subjects A2! Then your English and Combined Humans a C6. Don't get headaches tomorrow!!! CONCENTRATE!!!! ARRGH!!
no words can express
my love for you
Friday, August 18, 2006
6:37 PM
Today marks the day when I have my O Level English Language Oral Examination. I was considered rather lucky to be the 5th person. Only have to wait for half an hour. As I watch them go into the room one by one, I was getting even more and more anxious. Until it was time for me to go sit at the table to prepare myself while Mr Chio timed me. The passage was about friends...something mentioning the "Heart Wall" while the picture was about some group of students writing their messages on the hearts found on SBS buses( you know what I mean). Thus, as I was studying the 2 sheets of paper, I surmised that the topic for the conversation would roughly be about "Friends" too.
After what seemed like hours, Seok Teng emerged from the back door and it was my turn to stand by the entrance to wait for permission to enter. Then Janice suddenly said my uniform was out, well, I guess I would be penalised taking into consideration the fact that these 2 examiners were rather particular about image and things like that. I was so flustered and annoyed that I have to tuck it in until both my O Level sheet and EZ-Link Card dropped on the floor. THAT'S THE LAST STRAW! I LOATHE MYSELF. WHY CAN'T I DO A SIMPLE THING LIKE THIS RIGHT? I took one deep breath as if it was my last and entered the cold, dreadfully quiet room- Dream Studio.
Passage reading was fine, for the male examiner commented a "Good". Ha ha! Picture was okay, and he laughed when I said I could see one of the girls having a contrive smile, thus, she must be hoping she looks good in the picture. Conversation, just as I had deduced, was FRIENDS! And the best part is that I HAVE JUST PREPARED THIS TOPIC YESTERDAY WITH MS NG!! So kind of remembered what she has elaborated and just "shot" everything into the examiners' face. About qualities I look for and well, some examples of what my close friends have displayed that made me like them. He kept laughing when I said there are many people in this world who have different characters and even scheming people who make use of you. Lol...anyway, we went on to studying- whether I prefered to studying alone or in a group. So I said I prefered studying alone and stated my reasons. Yup...actually, I was kind of relaxed during my time there. In nature fact, you could say I'M IN LOVE WITH THE MALE EXAMINER. LOL...x_x
no words can express
my love for you
Monday, August 14, 2006
8:56 PM
It's 10 days to Prelim!! Am I panicking? No, I'm not. I'M JUST BECOMING HYSTERICAL!! AH!! These are the most depressing days of my life...it's the point where everything just keeps sinking and it feels like nothing is up. Totally gloomy and cheerless. I've received my papers back for both Maths. No, I mean the Prelim 2005 papers. Guess what? I failed one and I just passed one. Goodness, I swear I could have died if this was my results for the Prelims. Haiz...
Learnt from teacher and Xue Li that Chinese could actually be counted as R5. Well, at least I have hope now. I can truly certify that I'm not bothering about Physics anymore. I've been failing throughout the 2 years and I'm a bona fide Physics-idiot. The real McCoy. One-of-a-kind. The type that is really hopeless and "cureless".
Now I'm counting on my English, Combined Humans, 2 Maths, Chemistry, Biology and last but not least, Chinese. Hope these 7 subjects would do well for me to enter AJ for the first 3 months, now that I've given up hope on Physics. CHEMISTRY, PLEASE DON'T FAIL ME AGAIN!!
Anyway, I've taken some new pictures again to show how "hardworking" I am...hey I am really hardworking! =P
My messy table...
My 2 "favourite" pages...
And not forgetting my all-time top favourite companion. Double Chocolate Cookies!!
no words can express
my love for you
Friday, August 11, 2006
9:41 PM
When one can't get any sadder, the tears just dry up...
To the people who excelled: My heart-felt congratulations
To the people who didn't make it/ feel they could do much better: Come on peeps! Life still has to go on despite this setback. Let's work harder for the second time, or to some, the third time!! I do not believe that we could not achieve success if we work extremely hard!
no words can express
my love for you
Monday, August 07, 2006
5:59 PM
Just received a call from NYJC. In normal circumstances, I would be very elated and jumping for joy, screaming my lungs out. But now? I'M CAUGHT IN A DILEMMA, IN A PREDICAMENT!!
No doubt they have accepted my application, but I cannot deny the fact that my heart suddenly felt heavy. Now 2 JCs have accepted me!! Oh God!! The rules of this DSA is that I'm not suppose to "two-time" JCs if not I'm disqualified of the scheme should I be caught violating their rules. This wasn't suppose to happen!!
I'm so sorry Mr Tan!! If I could turn back time, I would. I thought I wouldn't be able to get in AJ...so I applied to NY as well...then AJ offered first, "striked while the iron was hot" and I accepted theirs. Haiz...I think Mr Tan will flare up when he knows about this. I wanted to tell him I didn't want NY already, but it was just so unfortunate, or maybe I was being made a sport at, that he was overseas. When I learnt from my juniors during the concert that he "sarcastiscally" said I was in his JC after they asked about me, I really wished at that moment he truly was being sarcastic. Then I wouldn't have to be the "baddie" and turn down his offer. I'd rather he don't want me to be in.
Daddy agrees that NY is a good junior college. However, it's been my dream to enter AJ. It's either one or none, considering I'll be disqualified if I accept both...lol
Mummy says I "played people out", since Mr Tan was really kind-hearted to help me out. This made feel even more remorseful. PLEASE! I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS TO HAPPEN!! AH!!!
Why is life so cruel? It's either you have everything in the world or you don't have none. Some people I know can't get in. But yet, I should consider myself luxurious to have the power or right to reject. I'm not boasting, seriously I'm not. My point is...well...Mr Tan went through so much trouble (I surmise) to get us in and now I'm not appreciating his effort. Think about this: No auditions, no interview, don't even have to submit in application form (even though I did) and you can enter.
I'm still pondering how to break this news to NY when I go collect the confirmation form tomorrow without causing any hard feelings. Wish me luck.
PS: Maybe I'm just over-reacting and being paranoid...-_-
no words can express
my love for you
Friday, August 04, 2006
11:06 PM
It's 20 days more to Prelims. Or rather, 19...excluding today. AND I'M SICK!! Why did the stupid influenza virus attack me? I just cannot take it lying down. I take Vitamin C everyday (well, almost everyday), have a balanced diet and adequate sleep (if you call 6 hours sufficient). BUT WHY AM I BEING ATTACKED BY THIS VIRUS??? I woke up this morning with a nose that runs like a spoiled pipe, coupled on with some sore throat. I think it got worse during curriculum as I had a severe blood rush the minute I lifted my head up from the table after some time.
Attempted to study just now...and I really really tried hard. But to no avail. I can't do "strenous" subjects as I lack the concentration I should have when I'm well. So I started reading SS from the scratch. Chapter 2: Merger & Separation. At least I could understand 1 chapter. It just sux...knowing you're going to waste one precious day nursing yourself back. And Daddy calls me problematic. Hello? It's not as if I'm the one at fault for having created my own sickness...and talk about a hectic scheldule tomorrow and the day after too. Heading for a hair cut in the morning and then to church for some Musicians Workshop thingy...then on Sunday? Waking up at the crack of dawn...or NOT EVEN THE CRACK OF DAWN for NDP performance. After all, I asked for it didn't I? I could have reported at 7am if I didn't choose to perform...so I only have myself to grumble at. Looking at the pile of subjects and chapters is just enough to motivate me to commit suicide. With the addition of the pressure that I must get below 20 for my Prelims...which, I surmise, it near-impossible thanks to the two "hot" subjects- English and Combined Humans.
God, God, God...I truly am at my wits end...I seriously have thoughts of committing suicide each time I look out from my balcony...and now this flu! Somebody, anybody...please help me!! Counsel me, encourage me, motivate me...
If there is a brain concoction, these are the brains I would like to have:
Mrs Goh- Chemistry
Mrs Veda- Biology
Daddy- Physics
Mr Goh- A/E Maths
Ms Ng- English
Mrs Ismail- Social Studies
Ms Zaiton- History
Lol...it may be grossteque...but at least I know I will definitely excel in my studies...I simply admire these teachers or my own dad for all the vast knowledge they have in that particular subject. Haiz...but for now...I think I'll be the stupid me with absolutely no knowledge at all...
no words can express
my love for you
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
8:18 PM
A Chinese saying goes like this: "Ri you suo si, ye you suo meng"(whatever you pin for in the day will also appear in your dreams). Seems familiar to most I suppose. Hey peeps! This is really true. Guess I've been thinking of that Nokia 6111 phone too intensively. It just triggers my temptation each time I see Jolene, Ashley or Kai Hui reaching out for that phone out of their pockets. It's so agonizing to the extent that I even dreamt I owned that phone last night! Arrgh!! My stupid M1 contract expires next month, on the 8th. Goodness...that's a long time!! It just seems like eternity! The cost of this phone is $268...yes, I know it's cheap to many of you...since some I know even bought phones that cost nearly $800...ha ha! But Mummy remains firm in her stand that no costly valuables should land on my hands as they will not come to any good end. She's even categorising this price in the expensive category. So I had to impassion her with my pleas that I really yearn for that phone and I'm willing to pay with my own savings. -_-"...such a "niao" woman...lol...
Seriously I musn't think about this now...since I guess I'll be eating mooncakes with my books under the moonlight...if you know what I mean. Heh heh...quite "atmospheric".
Quarrelled with Daddy 2 days ago. And I can't comprehend this...since it's just over one STUPID FISH HEAD! So well, we're currently "battling" each other under the Cold War. Such a petty man...I don't care, unless he starts talking, don't expect me to break this silence, because I WILL NOT!
Anyway, that's all for today. Gotta go study...AND STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT PHONE!!!
no words can express
my love for you