Monday, September 25, 2006
5:24 PM
For the first time in my Sec 4 AMKSS life, I am proud to announce that I've passed my English!!! Ok...so maybe it's only Paper 2. But nevertheless...after failing for the pass 10 months, especially when you're under a stringent teacher who always claims to sitck closely to "The O Level marking scheme", the chances of you even getting a 30 is a million to 1.
After a meal at the coffeeshop nearby, we proceeded back to the hall where they were already returning our question papers and summary scripts. Well, I was quite disheartened to find that I only have 15/25. Content 9 points, like what I expected and language 6/10.
Then after checking with the answers, I realized that I could actually score an extra point. As in, I did write "the plot of Star Wars was unrealistic" even though the answer says "incredulous" or "unbelievble". So I clarified with Mrs Lai and got a dressing-down from her as she says she'll still give it to me. But she's not sure the O Level markers will as I'm not specific enough in my answer. I still have to write "the plot was unrealistic as they were pitting against great odds". However, I think it;s worth it if she "pays" me one mark after all the scolding.
While I was at the side of the hall "begging" for marks, the going through of the summary points ceased and Mrs Chung stepped onto the stage. I didn't know that they were still going through the answering questions part until Felicia threw my script at me and said" Wa lao...you get so high." I glanced at the mark and saw 11/25. So I retorted:" Where got so high? In the end still fail..." I did a quick calculation in my head and then looked up shocked as realization dawned on me.Because I scored 27/50! Ah!! A pass!! Finally...I mean...I failed common test (18/50) and all the mock exams and practices. So it's kind of amazing that I actually DID pass. Lol...
no words can express
my love for you
Friday, September 22, 2006
8:11 PM
Lesson learnt today: GOD DOES CARE FOR YOU!! Why do I say so? Well, let me share with you a story...
Once upon a time, there was a girl called Candice who found out that she'd flunked her Social Studies Paper (22/50). So she was totally upset, dejected and disappointed. Being pissed off, she said so many vulgarites as though there was no tomorrow. Drowning her sorrow in tears, she felt that she was alone in this world, that no one was there to go through this together with her. It was at this time that her mind transported her back to the day when she was doing her Chemistry practical. Her heart was racing and her palms were sweaty as the second hand of the clocked ticked by. She had hoped to complete the paper, both the theory and experiment wise. But things did not go her way despite praying fervently. As a result, she failed to answer the whole of the last page, causing a loss of 6 marks at one go. Thinking of this, tears streamed down even more. No amount of words that her friends said could console her. She had failed utterly.
However, the good thing about Combined Humanities is that she still has the other paper (History) to determine her ultimate fate. On her way home, Candice had already calculated the marks needed to pass on the dot for her overall, which means 50%. This worried her alot as she knew very well that her common test wasn't satisfactory. That night, she couldn't even get a wink of sleep. So she did what she wouldn't have done during the Prelimary period. She once again turned to her only hope: God. It was true, Candice hated the way God was not there with her during Chemistry. Neither were there any signs that He'd helped her to do well in the other papers, or even worse, He did not fulfill her wish of overtaking the Section Leader last year. Nevertheless, he was her only saviour now. The one who was in control of everything, the creator of miracles. She said"God, if you're there, make your presence known. Show me that miracles do happen." With that, she closed her eyes and slowly but surely, fell into a disturbed slumber.
The next morning, she was feeling apprehensive. Many questions flitted through her mind: What if I get a C6 or C5? What if I only managed to score 27/50? What if...
Just then, the teacher Ms Zaiton walked over and handed the scripts to the person in front when all the classes gathered at the parade square for their daily flag-rasing. As the classes were ready to return to their respective classrooms, all the History students flocked to the first student, requesting to their marks. Making sure that the teacher was gone, she then returned all our papers. It was at this time Candice got the shock of her life: 41/50!! She felt light, as though she was on the verge of fainting. The number kept ringing in the head. No, she was certain it was not her paper. But yet the unmistakable handwriting, her name, it was all there. It WAS her answer script. Tears welled up her eyes, but it was of joy this time. It wasn't a C6 or C5 for her overall, it was a B4. One that was beyond her expectation. She then knew who to thank for. She looked up towards the clear blue sky and muttered an expression of gratitude to her saviour, her God. It was all too apparent that he still loves her and did not abandon her even though there was hatred in her towards Him.
Like the statement that most Christians had heard before- God said to the man: "When you see two pairs of footprints, I was walking alongside with you. But when you see a pair of footprints, it doesn't mean I'm not there with you. It just means I'm CARRYING you."...
no words can express
my love for you
Thursday, September 21, 2006
7:04 PM
Yup, so I've got back some of my papers already...and erm...there's only one word to describe it: CRAP! Yes, crap. I've only managed to get one A1, and that is Chinese. Not to mention the countless beggings I have to make to my teacher to persuade her to push it from a 74 to a 75. Do they allow you to do that in O Levels? Of course not! So my actual mark is actually an A2 only! A-Maths and E-Maths both suck like hell. They're not up to my expectations, especially E-Maths. I'm sooooo close to getting that stupid 70 mark!
Biology, well, I've so far managed to secure an A, a low grade A. And if my practical fails me, I can kiss it goodbye and drop to a 3.
Wanna hear even more horror stories? My Social Studies paper is very very not good. That's all I can say. I'm now counting on my History to push my marks up at least to a 4. That's how bad the situation is people.
Chemistry? Don't even think about getting a 2, it's like I'm hoping for a 3 now. Since I've screwed my Chem prac up and I don't think my Paper 2 is going to excel, neither is Paper 1. So how? Like I said in my August entry, getting below 20 is a feat. Hmm...guess I do not have to eat up my words after all.
If I can pass my Physics, I am the happiest young lady on Earth. I don't give a care for Physics, because I am not the type of material to do well in it.
Oh yes, the final and crucial subject of all. ENGLISH!! What with the review about Star Wars and terrorism, haiz...do you think I know about Star Wars, or even have interest in it? To me, it's just a lousy show with the worst special effects anyone can ever imagine in their whole lives. Hope I can at least at a 18 to 20 for my expository essay.
SHIT!!! I'VE ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ALL THE 95 POSTS IN MY TAG. PEOPLE, I'M TERRIBLY SORRY AND REGRETFUL OF MY ACTIONS. REGULAR VISITORS OF MY BLOG PLEASE KEEP TAGGING. YOUR POSTS ARE INVALUABLE! (And I really didn't do it on purpose. Hmm...must never meddle with such stupid function ever again!)
no words can express
my love for you
Monday, September 11, 2006
6:25 PM
Joanna's right. They do give weird experiments during Prelim...and to think I spent so much time trying to remember the structure of a tomata, well, the labellings like funicle, endocarp, epicarp, mesocarp, placenta and so on. And what came out was...
A KIDNEY BEAN SEED!!! And you know what? The stupid coat is like so difficult to peel...wish I had even longer fingernails. Luckily I remember the major part was the cotyledons while the protruding thing was a radical...not too bad. But the next experiment was worse!! I had to choose 40 brown and white rice seeds and had to measure each and every single one of their lengths! I felt so frustrated upon doing this. Think I'm going to fail my Biology practical!! Ah!! And there are 2 killer papers tomorrow (if you consider A Maths and English are)!! Seriously, I really fear that I can forget about the 3-month probation and about graduating this year.
What's worse, some people just do not understand how I feel! Recalling my conversation with him just makes me want to throw up blood! Fine, you say if I think I'm lousy, those people who are lazy should quit school long ago. But look, it's ok if you don't have high hopes about yourself, I do have. And quit telling me that my expectations are influenced by my parents because they're not. You know what? I'm fine with the fact that you don't study and like to switch girlfriends as frequent as you change your clothings, but don't ever tell me to relax my nerves and slack. Because I myself know the result if I do, and that is failure, which I simply cannot tolerate. So just shut up and for once at least try to empathise with me instead of chiding and giving nonsensical opinions!!
Received a postcard from Teens 4 Christ yesterday...it sure touched my heart...To Gabriel, Marissa, Marcus, Caleb, Uncle Samuel, Aunty Yvonne and Sybin jie jie: A million and one thanks and heartfelt gratitude to you guys!! Really appreciate the fact that I'm missed in church and also I'm not the only one going through this difficult and tiring road alone. Miss all of you too! Hopefully I can come for worship and fellowship after my Prelims.
no words can express
my love for you
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
11:59 PM
Promiscuous
Nelly Furtado
Am I throwin you off?
Nope
Didn't think so
How you doin' young lady
That feeling that you giving really drives me crazy
You don't have to play about the joke
I was at a loss of words first time that we spoke
Looking for a girl that'll treat you right
You looking for her in the day time with the light
You might be the type if I play my cards right
I'll find out by the end of the night
You expect me to let you just let you hit it
But will you still respect me if you get it
All I can do is try, gimme one chance
What's the problem I don't see no ring on your hand
I be the first to admit it
I'm curious about you
you seem so innocent
You wanna get in my world, get lost in it
Boy I'm tired of running, lets walk for a minute
Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I'm all alone
And it's you that I want
Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I'm all yours
What you waiting for?
Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
Are you ready?
Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute
Hey! I can't keep my mind off you
Where you at, do you mind if I come through
I'm out of this world come with me to my planet
Get you on my level do you think that you can handle it?
They call me Thomas
last name Crown
Recognize game
I'm a lay mine's down
I'm a big girl
I can handle myself
But if I get lonely
I'ma need your help
Pay attention to me
I don't talk for my health
I want you on my team
So does everybody else
Baby we can keep it on the low
Let your guard down ain't nobody gotta know
If you with it girl I know a place we can go
What kind of girl do you take me for?
Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I'm all alone
And it's you that I want
Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I'm all yours
What you waiting for?
Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
Are you ready?
Don't be mad, don't get mean
Don't get mad, don't be mean
Hey! Don't be mad, don't get mean
Don't get mad, don't be mean
Wait! I don't mean no harm
I can see you with my t-shirt on
I can see you with nothing on
feeling on me before you bring that on
Bring that on
You know what I mean
Girl, I'm a freak you shouldn't say those things
I'm only trying to get inside your brain
To see if you can work me the way you say
It's okay, it's alright
I got something that you gonna like
Hey is that the truth or are you talking trash
Is your game M.V.P. like Steve Nash
Promiscuous Girl
Wherever you are
I'm all alone
And its you that I want
Promiscuous Boy
I'm calling your name
But you're driving me crazy
The way you're making me wait
Promiscuous Girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need
Promiscuous Boy
We're one in the same
So we don't gotta play games no more
no words can express
my love for you
Sunday, September 03, 2006
11:02 PM
Once again, it's the annual Mooncake Festival. Hmm...favourite time of my year. Why? Because I can get to eat mooncakes!! Went shopping with my family at Thomson Plaza. So I kept pestering Mummy to buy mooncakes from Bengawan Solo, those snowskin ones. They're rather popular, especially pandan flavour. They were all sold out last week, all with the yolk in the center. That's why cannot lose to those people again! All in all, we bought 12 mooncakes, 4 for me, 4 for Mummy and 4 for the "little brat" Brian =P. Haha, Mummy and I bought the ones with yolk while Brian bought those that are plain due to his dislike for egg. Well, the 3 of us finished 4 in 2 days. This is what I call "pro". Oh, and by the way, their box is very unique. Here's a picture of it:
And after eating 4 of them...
Please don't ask me why it's all green...because I love pandan!! We actually bought strawberry and yam, but they are now in my Mum's stomach, probably used as fertilizer already...ha ha!Well, went through RV (Relative Velocity) with Daddy today. At least I'm beginning to see some "light" in this whole topic. And it's actaully quite comforting to know he doesn't really understand some questions. And so...he condemns them, saying they're inaccurate and "no good". Probably right in some way, since he's an experience lecturer in the field of engineering. Anyway, I've finally succumbed to the temptation of playing Sims 2. I so love this game, since Le Ying taught me a cheat code that can make life for me alot easier. Thanks girl!!
Jae Win and Daphne didn't go for the gathering during Teachers' Day. They both asked me if they had missed out alot. Hey guys! You DID miss out alot! Oh! Did I mention I also saw my Primary One Maths teacher Ms Lily Yew? Goodness! Even after she's married and had a kid, she's still so slim...think she could be the spokesman for one of the slimming companies or products. Very very slim...even slimmer than Mrs Yeoh. Lol...she didn't seem to recognise Joanna and I but all the same, she still talks to us and tells us about the funny things that happen when you teach P1s. Brings laughter to me to know that I actually behave so childishly when I was young...
no words can express
my love for you