Saturday, December 29, 2007
5:21 PM
Christmas has always been the most anticipated festival for me...and as usual, it was extremely fun to be involved in the Christmas celebration at church, though I've only got 1 gig playing the piano =D. But this year, I guess it's when I've really thought it true and decided that there are some things that I really have to let go. And it's pointless just clinging on to them.
According to him, there were "too many things to commit", too many that needed his attention. Again and again, he never fulfilled any promises he made...always breaking them, and breaking my heart. Just when I thought I had found the perfect friend, I was left to be disappointed, and dejected.
Like I always say, everything should have ended the moment he left, the moment he was out of sight. But no, I was stupid, foolish enough to still think our friendship could go on...that it would persevere despite the fact we are miles away, and not seeing each other's faces for about 1 to 2 years. I'm forever in my "fantasy world", where nothing is imperfect and doesn't go according to my plan. I refuse to face reality. But it's OK, because I'm proud and sure I'm making the right move. For someone who thinks a "sorry" can solve all the problems that didn't accumulate overnight, I definitely have no qualms starting 2008 afresh, without him in my life. After all, I don't think I meant much to him either, since his girlfriend is still alive and kicking.
I guess it's time to move on and get a life.
By the way, after this year, I really don't have much faith in love, in fact, I'm starting NOT to believe in love anymore.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME??
no words can express
my love for you
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
6:03 PM
Ok, so my life is not as exciting or "sweet" as some others out there in this world. I guess being confirmed as a Christian doesn't really bring about dramatic changes. And once again, I don't know why, but I am just so foolish to view my friends' blog...and my eyes stupidly chanced upon the pictures that they took with their "soul mates", even though I know jealously and envy will overwhelm me again.
Look, what's the point of scoring 91/100 for my Piano Diploma Exam? I thought I'd be satisfied, or happy. Unfortunately, I realize there's more than life to this. The worse thing is I care for such things when my major exams are coming up! I am seriously unsure about what the heck is bloody wrong with me.
While others get many tags everyday, my number is often stagnant, hardly increasing at all. This leaves me no reason to keep this webpage anymore...
Hmm...maybe I should give serious thought about closing it down...I guess there are some things that only works with the traditional methods. In this case, "pen and paper" would be a comfortable way to jot down my life. Maybe abstain from other people's blog too..then I can psycho myself that the life I live is far more interesting than anyone in this world, or even universe.
Meanwhile, I will continue to brainwash myself with Christian songs...hopefully Hillsong helps..=D
no words can express
my love for you
Sunday, December 02, 2007
9:16 PM
After fervently wishing for about 3 months, I finally got what I wanted. YAY! I have a fever!
My body's temperature is 38.2 degrees currently.
And I just have fever, no flu or sore throat or anything.
Cool huh?
Besides, I've decided to PERM MY HAIR! Ok, not really perm until that curly..but make it wavy...I'm rather sick of straight hair...
So..I'll be going to the salon on Tuesday..I guess..
Hope it turns out well! I don't want any hair disasters!!
Lastly, I'm finally baptised (or rather confirmed) as a Christian!! It makes me proud to shout it out to the whole world!
The lesson my fever thought me? Always be careful of what you wish for...
no words can express
my love for you