Just a quick one before I go mug for my Chem test. =D
I was having lunch at AMK Hub since I have 90 minute break before my Chem lesson. So I took a quick stroll at Basement 2, hoping to get some "extra" bites to smuggle into class. As I was walking past an outlet, I heard someone call my name. I looked around first before focusing onto the person that was in front of me- it was her. For the past 1 year ever since we went separate ways, I to JC and she to another education institute, and I didn't think of meeting her again, until then. So I approached her at the food outlet and asked her why was she working at 12 plus, an odd hour as a student should be studying then. She told me she dropped the course she was taking and decided to work.
I was stunned. I didn't expect her, an 18-year-old to face the brutal working world with just an O level cert, since she's not intending to further her studies.
The conversation was brief, as I only had 25 minutes to get back to AJ for my Chem lesson. But the impact hit me hard, like a tight slap on the face. I've always felt like quitting school since it was so tough, especially with band and everything. But I think God has finally responded to my thoughts. I'm not trying to be mean or what, but from the Bio perspective, it's like being "selected against". I think that's what God is trying to tell me, not to give up. Sometimes, I do think it's better to know than not to know.
Another thing, I also felt extremely silly that I actually disliked her a lot when she acquired the position in my CCA that I have sought after. During my upper secondary days, she was like my "head" in band, and I'm just a member while she was holding the top position. I still remember it was the 5th of May 2005, when I tried not to cry until I got into Daddy's car as we were preparing to out for dinner. In there, I bawled like a big baby. Daddy and Mummy said all these positions aren't important, and studies are more crucial, since my O levels was the next year. But I still refused to heed their advice, the tears just flowed like nobody's business.
It made me silly, it made me foolish, like a big idiot, to think that I actually cared for such trivial matters. When I saw her, I couldn't believe my eyes, that the girl sitting at a doughnut outlet, was actually the girl who acquired the top position in my CCA. And I disliked her because of that.
Now, I guess God is trying to tell me to let bygones be bygones, and I will.
Please bless me, as I'm getting back my Chinese results soon...