It's 20 days more to Prelims. Or rather, 19...excluding today. AND I'M SICK!! Why did the stupid influenza virus attack me? I just cannot take it lying down. I take Vitamin C everyday (well, almost everyday), have a balanced diet and adequate sleep (if you call 6 hours sufficient). BUT WHY AM I BEING ATTACKED BY THIS VIRUS??? I woke up this morning with a nose that runs like a spoiled pipe, coupled on with some sore throat. I think it got worse during curriculum as I had a severe blood rush the minute I lifted my head up from the table after some time.
Attempted to study just now...and I really really tried hard. But to no avail. I can't do "strenous" subjects as I lack the concentration I should have when I'm well. So I started reading SS from the scratch. Chapter 2: Merger & Separation. At least I could understand 1 chapter. It just sux...knowing you're going to waste one precious day nursing yourself back. And Daddy calls me problematic. Hello? It's not as if I'm the one at fault for having created my own sickness...and talk about a hectic scheldule tomorrow and the day after too. Heading for a hair cut in the morning and then to church for some Musicians Workshop thingy...then on Sunday? Waking up at the crack of dawn...or NOT EVEN THE CRACK OF DAWN for NDP performance. After all, I asked for it didn't I? I could have reported at 7am if I didn't choose to perform...so I only have myself to grumble at. Looking at the pile of subjects and chapters is just enough to motivate me to commit suicide. With the addition of the pressure that I must get below 20 for my Prelims...which, I surmise, it near-impossible thanks to the two "hot" subjects- English and Combined Humans.
God, God, God...I truly am at my wits end...I seriously have thoughts of committing suicide each time I look out from my balcony...and now this flu! Somebody, anybody...please help me!! Counsel me, encourage me, motivate me...
If there is a brain concoction, these are the brains I would like to have:
Mrs Goh- Chemistry
Mrs Veda- Biology
Daddy- Physics
Mr Goh- A/E Maths
Ms Ng- English
Mrs Ismail- Social Studies
Ms Zaiton- History
Lol...it may be grossteque...but at least I know I will definitely excel in my studies...I simply admire these teachers or my own dad for all the vast knowledge they have in that particular subject. Haiz...but for now...I think I'll be the stupid me with absolutely no knowledge at all...