A KIDNEY BEAN SEED!!! And you know what? The stupid coat is like so difficult to peel...wish I had even longer fingernails. Luckily I remember the major part was the cotyledons while the protruding thing was a radical...not too bad. But the next experiment was worse!! I had to choose 40 brown and white rice seeds and had to measure each and every single one of their lengths! I felt so frustrated upon doing this. Think I'm going to fail my Biology practical!! Ah!! And there are 2 killer papers tomorrow (if you consider A Maths and English are)!! Seriously, I really fear that I can forget about the 3-month probation and about graduating this year.

What's worse, some people just do not understand how I feel! Recalling my conversation with him just makes me want to throw up blood! Fine, you say if I think I'm lousy, those people who are lazy should quit school long ago. But look, it's ok if you don't have high hopes about yourself, I do have. And quit telling me that my expectations are influenced by my parents because they're not. You know what? I'm fine with the fact that you don't study and like to switch girlfriends as frequent as you change your clothings, but don't ever tell me to relax my nerves and slack. Because I myself know the result if I do, and that is failure, which I simply cannot tolerate. So just shut up and for once at least try to empathise with me instead of chiding and giving nonsensical opinions!!

Received a postcard from Teens 4 Christ yesterday...it sure touched my heart...To Gabriel, Marissa, Marcus, Caleb, Uncle Samuel, Aunty Yvonne and Sybin jie jie: A million and one thanks and heartfelt gratitude to you guys!! Really appreciate the fact that I'm missed in church and also I'm not the only one going through this difficult and tiring road alone. Miss all of you too! Hopefully I can come for worship and fellowship after my Prelims.