Is it better to have a few good friends who could understand you inside-out, upside-down? Or to have plenty of people revolving around you, making you popular but are not around when you actually need their help?
It sux, it totally sux. I can't believe this is happening to me. We were so close together during chalet, where both of us first met. It's like, we clicked rather well. This is also the first time I was able to socialise or talk so comfortably with a guy. After that, we shared countless smses, phone calls and even talks when we met during our Sunday school time. Then he too left, in 2004. That year was the most ugly year of my life. Many people left the church. They were either migrating to other countries or transferred to other churches with no rhyme or reason. Maybe there was a motive behind it but I just couldn't comprehend. So we went our separate ways...occasionally catching up on MSN.
Sometimes I wonder if the invention of MSN was beneficial or otherwise. Because more and more people are prone to chatting with the "computer" instead of actually using the phone to communicate. To me, I'd rather Singapore lack this software. If anything, just call. At least I can hear the person's voice. We chat more online than using the telephone. Messages were also reduced, from a few a week to practically none right now. In fact, when I was so deeply hurt one time, he wasn't there when I needed him.
I couldn't accept his justification of leaving his phone at home. How was I to know that he was inaccessible that day? I was so upset I didn't know what to do. It was my fault, for letting his name flit through my mind. I've learnt my lesson. Next time, I will never call him no matter how troubled I am.
Friends of the same gender are more realiable as your pillars of support as well as shelter and refuge. There are some exceptions, of course, from the other gender. But for me, I'm still on the prowl for such friends...
